Oh hai 2011
As I’m currently creating goals for this new year, I flipped through my 2010 moleskine to find last year’s goals. Its kinda strange to stare down at this list… in fact, this whole freakin book. Its a little doodled time capsule. I can flip to any page and I’m flung into that day’s memories. What I was working on, the people I was with, food I ate, etc…Super funky feeling… Anyway, its safe to say I was a different person this time last year, yet some of these goals still make sense to the current me. Like “learn to drive stick shift” still seems like a vital piece of knowledge whilst in the middle of the zombie apocalypse :] I’m happy to say I’ve crossed off six goals: get a job, sell a few paintings, make business cards, paint a portrait as a gift, do something for charity and finish my series. Things like “show with my brother” and “get personal site running” are soon to be completed.
Since I’ve been thinking a lot about what I want to accomplish this year, I started to realize that some of my previous goals weren’t really realistic. Some were oddly specific and some depended on my relationships with others. Last year was a pretty turbulent year filled with a lot of unexpected turns. I evidently lost control of myself for a little while. I gained and lost relationships, thus sorta affecting specific goals.
SooOOo it got me thinking how I should go about this year’s goals. I seemed to complete the tasks that I myself was responsible for and in control of. I can plan all I want, social wise, but I dont think I’ll make them 2011 goals. I cant know what’ll happen with relationships and assume everything will be fine and dandy. You can hope and plan, but people tend to change. So why create and count on goals revolving around others if you’re gonna end up disappointed if everything doesnt go as planned?….It would appear my optimism in people has changed.
Apparently I did this whole resolution thing wrong. Last year was probably the first time I really made some resolutions and tried to stick with them throughout the year. Obviously, I knew resolutions are meant for SELF growth but I tried fitting other people into the mix. I’ve learned that doesn’t work for me. So this year, I’m making goals that’ll do me proud. I havent any excuses not to complete projects I’ve been yearning to do for years. I feel confident in myself that I can get things done and grow.
Heres to a wildly productive year :]
On a related side note, I cant help but start a health kick at the start of a new year. So I’ve been working out a bit and eating healthier. Working at an Italian restaurant doesnt really help, but I’m trying…oh ma gawd I’m trying. I gotta say though, drinking at least six glasses of water a day does the body good. I’ve been trying to keep with it this past week and I’m feeling pretty different. I’ve kicked soda as well and I havent felt as drained. It’s nice :]
